Time for a change....

If it was done when it was done, then it was best that it was done quickly. 
 That being said let me say this: I have a love hate relationship with my hair. It had grown long, down to my waist again and while it was nice to look at it took time to do the upkeep, not much since I am a no fuss kind woman, but to wash then condition it no matter what I tried it was a 15 to 20 minute job. Now on bed-rest  I was told not to be on my feet for more than 10 minutes at the time .... dilemma on the horizon. Before I did anything drastic since as I said I do like my hair I ask for 2 days straight "Honey please come hold the shower head while I sit and wash my hair" I don't do well with begging, so after asking one more time today and getting told "I am busy" I took a set of scissors to my locks and snipped off almost 18 inches. It is now just above my shoulders and the wash time is down to 4 minutes flat. I was told I will regret doing this but I do not think I will, I thought about this for a couple hours and it is just hair... it will grow back it is not like a tattoo that I will have to live with forever. I am looking at it this way, I have to be dependent on others for soooooooooooo much that I was beginning to feel bad about myself and worthless... so if chopping off some hair helps me be independent on at least one thing the YAY!
 I think it all comes down to we do what we must do when it is crunch time just to keep our sanity and the hair removal was just something I had to do :)

Growing a baby is hard work.....Bed-rest Sucks!

Let us back up a bit, Thursday night late I noticed a little big of blood when I wiped, I had a pretty bad backache and mild tummy cramps that were coming then going. Friday morning, still a tiny amount of blood and the cramps that come and went... sooooooooooo I called my nurse just to see if I should worry, she said probably not but go to the hospital and get checked just in case. I was not extremely concerned since I was still feeling the baby move, there was not a lot of blood and the cramps were not bad really. But still I needed to have a doctor tell me my cervix was not dilating and so forth.

 Spent 2 and 1/2 hours at the hospital, had one bad moment when the nurse could not find the baby's heartbeat right away but she explained that when the baby is only about 5 inches long depending on how they are laying it can take a couple minutes, but thank God! she found my little darling's heartbeat. So long story short I over did it Wednesday and Thursday and my uterus is cranky. The fix for this bed-rest for the next 4 or 5 days and when I do return to normal things do it slowly and don't over do it .... 

 I had to go to the hospital alone since everyone was busy or working, I did have my sister of the heart with me via internet (she has been the best support I could have ask for!) but .... I did get slightly upset since I was alone and if I had gotten bad news I would have had to deal with it all alone. 

 I am being a good Mommy, I am staying on bed-rest like I should, I have decided that I do not care if nothing gets done around here I am putting this baby first at all cost and I will catch up after the baby is born. I have also decided that bed-rest sucks! My hips are already complaining and all I want to do is sleep, I am beginning to worry that if this bed-rest get extended for the rest of the pregnancy I will get very very depressed. I am so bored being tied to the bed, I will do what ever it takes tho to make sure I give this little baby the best chance of staying where he/she should until November. It hit me hard yesterday, I knew I loved this baby and really want it but I did not know HOW attached I was until the nurse had to look for the heartbeat for a couple minutes. I cried when she found it I was so relieved! 

 So here we are I am on bed-rest not to happy but the cramps have stopped and in a couple of days things will be good again. I will now stop more and do small amounts at a time. Me thinks this will be a LONG 4 or 5 days lol.