So Sunday showed more than stable vital signs, it shows there is still a problem but since I was there to talk to the doctor today we will know *I pray* by some time tomorrow we will know what the heaven is wrong. They are calling in a GI Doctor.. have to do some test, and go from there.
I was tired when I left Tallahassee, but every mile I got closer to my house the more tired I became. I had to stop a mile from my drive way just to reel it all it. Would not do to let the kids see how upset I was. I am frustrated that the doctors, though I am sure they are doing the best they can, are not doing enough fast enough in my opinion. I am frustrated that I have had to stay on top of the nurses. I am frustrated in myself that I HAD to come home, I could not think straight and I was getting snappy with everyone. I am frustrated that I am not stronger but I know that I must come rest to be strong when or if the time comes that I really need to be strong. I am ANGRY that we are almost a week in and still have no conclusive answers. I am exhausted since I have had maybe 5 hours of sleep in the last 72 hours. I am .... so very, very, very scared... we seem to go one step forward and 3 steps back and not a one of the educated people that are with my mother can tell me the answer to the dread question WHY?!?!?! I am scared that the test they run tomorrow will show something worse than I can deal with, or they will show nothing at all and we will be at another dead in.
Now that I am through whining, I am going to now go and take a HOT shower and find my bed for what I hope will be a few hours of down time since I have no idea when I will have to fly back to the hospital. *sigh*
Showing posts with label Hospital. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Hospital. Show all posts
Sunday, December 18, 2011
Saturday, December 17, 2011
Noticed things...
I have noticed a few things that I will list here, hoping my battery will hold out since I forgot the charger for it at home, (good job right? I was in such a rush to get out the door I just slapped the poor laptop shut and ran) but at least I have it here for a few moments. I gave T gas money to send back Mom's pillows and my cord so we will see when and if they decide to return.
The things I have noticed are:
A.) Hospitals are quiet places, and a boring place to be honestly, if you don't have some kind of entertainment, especially since Mom and I do not agree on what TV show we should watch.
B.) It takes a LONG time for a unit of blood to drip through an IV line.
C.) I take charge really well in tense situations and I am hating that honestly, I just feel like it should not be my place alone, tho, it seems I am often thrust into this role.
D.) Others are really good at giving advice when they are not looking at the exact same thing you are (IE a sleepless night or all the facts that you have.)
E.) You have to walk a million miles to the vending machines here... Ok so not a Million but.. they are on the first floor and I am on the 3rd... just UGH.
F.) A night away from home is somewhat scary, for me at least at this point in time.
G.) My father is an ass-hat. Saying that with all the love that I can but he really is. I am here in a hospital room on the 3rd floor with my Mother for the night and when my relief comes in the morning my Father goes.... "well what if I am hunting and not at home?" Wrong Answer... my short answer was "BE HOME!"
I swear I will never understand my parents. They fight worse than children and go on and on and on but let them be apart, they are freaking lost.
H.) Doctors love to side-step questions with big words... if I have a choice I will always ask a nurse. Though I will be honest here some of the nurses are not stellar as I have said in a previous blog, but I am here tonight so it will be alright or else. Also the charge nurse tonight is named Kelly and we think along the same lines.
I.) NEVER RESEARCH THINGS ON WEBMD.COM! That is unless you want to have the pants scared off of you. I have to be informed of all the what if's tho .... and so I am .... not thinking that was the best idea now.
J.) Syfy channel is not my cup of tea, really that and animal planet are what my Mother seems to love and I could care less for them. Thank god for laptops and netflix.
So, I am set for the night. I made sure to grab my pillow and my blanket from the house so I will be as comfy as I can expect to be for the night. I hope the morning sun does come up soon. I hope A or T make it here soon after sun up. I pray my mother gets well fast and can come home soon, I pray God gives the doctors the wisdom to get it figured out and fixed fast. I pray that I never have to go through something like this again. Oh God, how I pray...
*****A and Dad brought back my charger cord so I will be entertained tonight, and it only cost me 10 bucks I am rocking now*****
The things I have noticed are:
A.) Hospitals are quiet places, and a boring place to be honestly, if you don't have some kind of entertainment, especially since Mom and I do not agree on what TV show we should watch.
B.) It takes a LONG time for a unit of blood to drip through an IV line.
C.) I take charge really well in tense situations and I am hating that honestly, I just feel like it should not be my place alone, tho, it seems I am often thrust into this role.
D.) Others are really good at giving advice when they are not looking at the exact same thing you are (IE a sleepless night or all the facts that you have.)
E.) You have to walk a million miles to the vending machines here... Ok so not a Million but.. they are on the first floor and I am on the 3rd... just UGH.
F.) A night away from home is somewhat scary, for me at least at this point in time.
G.) My father is an ass-hat. Saying that with all the love that I can but he really is. I am here in a hospital room on the 3rd floor with my Mother for the night and when my relief comes in the morning my Father goes.... "well what if I am hunting and not at home?" Wrong Answer... my short answer was "BE HOME!"
I swear I will never understand my parents. They fight worse than children and go on and on and on but let them be apart, they are freaking lost.
H.) Doctors love to side-step questions with big words... if I have a choice I will always ask a nurse. Though I will be honest here some of the nurses are not stellar as I have said in a previous blog, but I am here tonight so it will be alright or else. Also the charge nurse tonight is named Kelly and we think along the same lines.
I.) NEVER RESEARCH THINGS ON WEBMD.COM! That is unless you want to have the pants scared off of you. I have to be informed of all the what if's tho .... and so I am .... not thinking that was the best idea now.
J.) Syfy channel is not my cup of tea, really that and animal planet are what my Mother seems to love and I could care less for them. Thank god for laptops and netflix.
So, I am set for the night. I made sure to grab my pillow and my blanket from the house so I will be as comfy as I can expect to be for the night. I hope the morning sun does come up soon. I hope A or T make it here soon after sun up. I pray my mother gets well fast and can come home soon, I pray God gives the doctors the wisdom to get it figured out and fixed fast. I pray that I never have to go through something like this again. Oh God, how I pray...
*****A and Dad brought back my charger cord so I will be entertained tonight, and it only cost me 10 bucks I am rocking now*****
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