Sunday Shows... Exhaustion, Frustration, and...

So Sunday showed more than stable vital signs, it shows there is still a problem but since I was there to talk to the doctor today we will know *I pray* by some time tomorrow we will know what the heaven is wrong. They are calling in a GI Doctor.. have to do some test, and go from there.
 I was tired when I left Tallahassee, but every mile I got closer to my house the more tired I became. I had to stop a mile from my drive way just to reel it all it. Would not do to let the kids see how upset I was. I am frustrated that the doctors, though I am sure they are doing the best they can, are not doing enough fast enough in my opinion. I am frustrated that I have had to stay on top of the nurses. I am frustrated in myself that I HAD to come home, I could not think straight and I was getting snappy with everyone. I am frustrated that I am not stronger but I know that I must come rest to be strong when or if the time comes that I really need to be strong. I am ANGRY that we are almost a week in and still have no conclusive answers. I am exhausted since I have had maybe 5 hours of sleep in the last 72 hours. I am .... so very, very, very scared... we seem to go one step forward and 3 steps back and not a one of the educated people that are with my mother can tell me the answer to the dread question WHY?!?!?! I am scared that the test they run tomorrow will show something worse than I can deal with, or they will show nothing at all and we will be at another dead in.
 Now that I am through whining, I am going to now go and take a HOT shower and find my bed for what I hope will be a few hours of down time since I have no idea when I will have to fly back to the hospital. *sigh* 

Sunday Shows

Sunday has shown up bright and clear with very cold temps outside. Sundays shows GREAT improvements in Mom and for that I am so relieved. All vitals have been normal since a little after midnight I am waiting on the Doctor now to show up so that I can ask her or him the major questions. 
 It is not even 8 am and I had to be up and moving. What a night, but well worth it since I could stay on top of the nurses and on top of what needed to be done. I think the next order of business, after I have spoken to the doctor is to find a McDonalds then to find my bed and get Flat, Flat, Flat! Oh and to block Animal Plant and SyFy from my tv! *chuckles* 
 Ok time to go track down a Pepsi and stretch my legs a bit more. I have moved my pillow and blanket to the van, now I will move my back massager and it's charger.. Here is to Sunday Shows and here is to hoping Sunday does not Blow...