Thursday, May 31, 2012

Morbid or Realistic?

So here we are again.... and the question is what is the line between being morbid in thought or being realistic in thought?
 I am the type of woman that wants the next step in what ever the process is. If this happens we do that, if that happens this is the next step. So... last night to prepare myself for an in case of I started my research on what would happen if for some ungodly reason we lost the baby. I am not expecting any problems but things and life happen and I want to be prepared. My loving husband fussed at me for being depressing and dwelling on morbid things... I don't think I was. 
 Is it better to never think about the what if's should something horrible happen then get a shock since you have no idea what to expect? Or is it better to at least know what to expect when the unthinkable happens? Personally I want to know all the possible outcomes so that I am prepared but I understand some people don't... I think it goes back to the glass half full or half empty kind of person you are. 
 On an annoying note... I got a migraine 3 days ago, call the pharmacy for a refill on my meds, the pharmacy sent me an email confirmation .... next day I called, they had lost the RX and needed to call the doctor ERRRRR... So, Okay, I called the doctor yesterday afternoon, the nurse informed me the RX was sent and so forth, the pharmacy said they did not get it... what a LONG and pain filled night.. got up this morning called the pharmacy at 10 and they still had not heard from the doctor (per them). 5 minutes later my nurse called to check (I love this woman!) and when I told her the pharmacy had not seen it yet she said "I will call them right now honey, give it 30 minutes then call them and go get your medicine so that you will not be in pain!" Sure enough 30 minutes later I had my RX in hand and I am in a bit of a better place now. I just could not believe the go back and forth with the pharmacy this month. I guess for the most part it would not have bothered me but I am in pain and every little thing is annoying me. 
 Okay, so that is where we are for the most part. Next week is the dentist and the baby doctor again. I make 16 weeks next week, I started feeling the baby move and it is AMAZING! Because the baby is still so small I can't feel her/him move all the time but late at night when all is still and quiet it is the most amazing feeling in the world! We are getting past the first trimester horror symptoms too which is so nice, I am not having to run pee every 5 minutes and the morning/afternoon sickness is backing off... I am looking forward to this trimester being easy :)